[ENG] Listen to your desires ft. Althea Reynolds

Listen to your desires

Being new in a city you don't know has its pros and cons. For example, one of the positive aspects is that you started an adventure. You end up in a brand new place you know nothing about. New streets, new home, new country, new people... That's great I guess. Feeling the excitement of starting your life over can be refreshing.

But sometimes, it can be underwhelming. Even terrible, I'd say. I'll be honest here ; being gay is already hard in the first place. I had to hide my love for men for most of my life, except to my closest friends. But when you end up in a city where you don't know anyone, well... finding a partner is even harder.
The point I'm trying to make here is I was actually craving for sex. Sex has been one of my biggest pleasure since I discovered it, and I can't live whithout it. And it had been two months since I moved to Bowen, and it means it had been two months I had no sexual intercourse whatsoever. Although I obviously went searching for someone to have sex with on Grindr and some other gay apps, my expectations were quickly put down. There was almost no one goodlooking on those apps, so I gave up after 2 weeks.
So, by the time I found someone, I decided to go to a sexshop, to at least get some pleasure for myself.

All I hoped was that I didnt run into someone I knew. That would've been embarrassing. I only knew a few people in Bowen, obviously, but still, it is always when you dont wanna see someone outside that you actually see someone (against your will.)
Basically, my plan was to go out shopping on a monday, so that most people were working at that time.
I know, this seems like I'm over-reacting, but I didnt want anyone to know I needed to please myself so badly, especially counting on the fact that I was new in the city, and I had to build a good reputation for myself.

So here I was, on a monday afternoon, looking to buy a penis made of silicone in a cheap sexshop. And for the life of me, I should've known this was a bad idea.

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