I was just trying to be cool + Alek (English)

She let you be free tonight, you could tell her everything you need to talk about. But you wouldn't, wouldn't scare her with your problems and wouldn't to show how a miserable childhood you had. You don't like to be the victims, to blame other people than you. What she said was right, you can't forget for a minute but it will always be in you, in your soul.

I know, but I'm living like that since a lot of time now... you said, lowering your eyes. No, it's not for a girl don't worry about that, I've a heart made of stone, you laughed.

Maybe it's also for a girl, for this girl you leave in London, this girl you loved so much. The only one, you couldn't forget her, never. But you tried to move on. She asked you where you came from, it's undeniable, with your pretty accent of a British guy. She wanted to know how London was, your favorite place on earth.

London is so amazing, I used to live in a suburban neighborhood, so I knew the grunge way of London. But not with a bad hygiene like American could say, you laughed. London people are so different, they don't care about anything, they live how they want to and do whatever they want. It's another way of life, even if they used to drink a lot a tea at every hour of the day.

Typical stereotype of your country, tea. That's a thing you liked. Tea and grunge people, it's amazing to see. You used to drink a lot of it, and a lot of sorts. Your mum loved it, you had a cupboard with a different sort of tea when your mother was still alive. You continue your discussion together, and she seemed so friendly that you like it a lot. She's so sweet, so adorable, and also beautiful. Stop it, Alek, you are just talking with her.

Yes, magnificent ! She's staying in here. A new life, find new friends, new home. But it's amazing ! You should try, you say before lighting a cigarette. I hope the smoke doesn't embarrass you, if it is I can turn off mine, you said politely.

The hardest part about this discussion was to think about your father and your mother. Your beloved mother. Living with the momeries of your childhood was really hurting but you tried to face it. She asks you if it helps to come here, in Bowen. You thought it was the best thing you ever do in your entire life.

Yes, it helped a lot, the best idea I never had, you responded.Womanizer ? It's a perfect word for me ! you laughed. My loneliness is essential, I'm waiting for the perfect girl, you said with a little smile.

True, you never forget the girl you let in London when you left the country. It's was horrible, one of the hardest thing you had to do in your life. You thought about her for a minute, her beauty, her kindness and loveliness. But never mind. After, she asks you what was the best city between London and Bowen but it was a hard question.

London is amazing for partying, tea, punk neighborhood, and Bowen is perfect for chilling, hanging out with friends. So you'll don't like the answer but it's not the same, incomparable, you said with a laugh.

She reminds you the girl you once loved in London. So sweet, so innocent et so beautiful. This girl calmed you when you were drunk, or high. She knew how to talk to you, how to deal with you when you were drunk. Innocent because she doesn't way your way of life : cigarettes, drugs, alcohol. But she loves you, the really you, the only one who knew you like that.

Oh, yes for sure, don't worry I won't, you responded politely. So, do you have a lucky man who is sharing your life actually ? you asked, but with a back thought, and you give her a wink.